IGOR ITS ALIVE

I been slaving away a little bit as of late, uni has kicked off again brother home from Israel so its all been a bit hectic to say the least. This blog however is not to talk about work cos that will bore you to tears.

Modelling life is going okay actually, it's getting there slowly, last week did a test for William Baker with another model from Premier, really great day, with a really lovely team and William is a very strong photographer. He did kylie's latest tour photos, and there was some really creative goings on so Im kind of happy with the results. The next day he invited me to the B BOY launch party at the shadow lounge which though not quite my 'scene' was really good fun. I went to make good with my bookers, show my face show I could network, and had really good time. Really looking forward to posting the pictures on the blog actually. I did do a bit of networking and missed Kylie Minogue by 20 mins and really would have liked to meet her not that she would have been overly impressed by me but still.....There is plenty more to tell but all in good time!

The New Season begins

So im told by my booker, so do i expect excitement to come my way well only time will tell. I love the ambitious streak in me, its definately from my mum, but right now its kinda killing me, I am feeling entirely disatisfied with everything I have done thus far. Thats a silly attitude to ahve but hopefully one that is going to cause me to jump through the next hoop.








It is one thing being signed to an agency, but i don't want to be one of the faces that sits their and collects dust, I want to be a somebody there ascertain some status. A few options are coming my way at the moment but i need to make things happen, acting wise also. There are a couple of really nice contacts sitting about its time to feel im making the most of them, but im not sure why it feels the momentum has stalled.....keep tuned. I will figure it out.

Dimitris Theocaris latest shots

So many more from this series to come check them out.

Plateau or a Spring Board

What does it mean when life stalls are you about to descend into mad free fall or simply in a transition between gears, woah something is up my life... or my expectations of life have changed so drastically. Each ambition slowly surpassed my the desire for more....the greed for more you might say? Let's assume for the minute it is pure untapered ambition. However this has left a stop gap in my life of feeling rather well whats the word disatisfied with some elements.

Last week was cool, I did a shoot coming up in the new addition of Arena Homme + great opportunity, unfortunately for me it was of my arms torso and t-shirt no face but I am actually satisfied with that result. Hopefully it should tuck nicely into my portfolio and I may generate some work from it. However I want more this modelling malarchy needs conquest, I am not waging a US invasion of vietnam here, I am wanting a decisive battle of Waterloo, shades of grey will not satisfy.

Mean while in my eager persuit for life, I have taken seriously to another private goal, in athletics which happily compliments my modelling in terms of staying in shape. I am aiming to run a sub 11 sec 100m's. Some time ago I was quick and realise my muscles have been merely forged by the gym in last 2 or so years and wanted a purpose to my fitness. Athletics is great its you against the unforgiving stop watch, it doesn't care for excuses for drama you run your arse off it gives you a time, and it demands blood sweat and tears for results. I have been training seriously hard and loving it something which I used to find tough, however something about the nausea from the last session has satisfied me in a way it never did before because through this suffering I have learnt to feel alive. The heightening of sesnses the exertion of muscles and organs a like and its never felt so good. I don't want to be the old man pontificating how fast he could run when he no longer has a chance to do it, me and the track had unfinished business I want to be able to set in stone my achievments and I hope it feels as good as I think it will if I achieve it.

The picture represents the feeling of liberation sprinting has given me as of late.

While on the olympic theme this made me laugh

success breeds success "am i right or am i right"

I got a story for you this week,

it really inspired me was so cool. I was bored last tuesday and was on facebook just killing time as one does, but shouldn't. Spurned on by the Olympics i started wondering if any of team GB had a facebook page, and punched in the name of oneof our atheletes who got GOLD in Beijing her name Rebecca Romero. There was a fan wall and decided I felt so passionately about how well I thought team GB cycling had done and was so pleased for what they had done to wash away the shroud of negativity that comes with english sport I felt I should lend my 2 cents. I added her as a friend rather audaciously not expecting anything to come of it all, to my surprise she accepted. I then added small personal snipit on her wall to say well done england is proud of our medalists like you wouldnt believe.

SUDDENLY through facebook chat I get a message saying "hi" my eyes nearly came out of my skull when i realised it was actually Rebecca from Beijing, I actually couldn't believe it, why how would she have time for some 21 year old kid? I ended up having a 30 minute chat with her on the olympics her thoughts her feelings, the home reaction to the games, drugs cheats and everything. I cannot believe someone like that could have been so genuinely decent so genuinely down to earth it was actually one of the most inspiring moments i can remember. It meant so much to me she would actually give me her time let alone even be pleasant. Maybe somewhere out in the post gold rush celebrations and hype those people feel as though we would thrust into a country with a distinct culture clash, tired and lonely from 2 gruelling weeks away from home training furiously, and maybe in a nostalgic moment with the desire to be home this may have been a window that would never have been there to exploit otherwise. I have been so taken back that I do not know what the message is there, fortune favours the brave perhaps it wouldnt have happened had I not tried but that maybe extreme we cant just go adding people lol. What it does show me is the humility we could all carry ourselves with and quite rightfully we can all learn from these stoic figures especially in the world of modelling where what we do and achieve is infinitely superficial and we should always try and remain grounded in light of that fact.

back in the blocks wait for the gun

The olympics can teach us all alot about well alot of things, its more than gold medals and records, its almost about what it is to be human, seeing in the faces of people the determination, grace disapointment and success. People sporty people living the dream i was a sporty person i can identify with these people. Now i dont chase olympic glory but our quests are not too disimilar i chase success and we all no success in different forms.

Slowly like an athelete training for the olympics I have had a hamstring injury the work experience but now i am recovered and its time to stretch the modelling muscles, I have started attending castings again and feedback is not immediate but the positivity is building the momentum will build if i work at it. An athelete does not sit on his backside imagining he will run sub 10secs, thats why I have started putting myself out there, the agency is not as warm and friendly as it once was for my absence but then that is more to work on I am so determined this can happen... I have to make it happen the journey i began some months ago cannot be left without conclusion